Harmonious Pain 

When you went it hurt.

Absence like an abscess.

A life that once danced around and

Told jokes.

Math problems unanswered,

Mornings hushed.

A pained smile.

“He’s doing well.”

Sad songs on my guitar.

“Yes, a natural transition.”

Yes.

Naturally difficult.

Naturally lonely.

Naturally alone.

In October,

In his dorm room,

I met his fun friends,

And skepticism vanished.

In the philosophy lecture,

I took notes,

As if I understood epistemology.

Unfamiliarity was daunting yet exciting.

I slept in his room one night, just like old times.

The inflatable mattress I wrote my name on

After I’d woken up with a 

Heartening pain in my back.

He was okay.

I am okay.