{"id":958,"date":"2023-05-12T06:00:00","date_gmt":"2023-05-12T06:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/blueandread.asbarcelona.com\/?p=958"},"modified":"2023-05-11T17:03:41","modified_gmt":"2023-05-11T17:03:41","slug":"our-colliding-orbits-chapter-5","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blueandread.asbarcelona.com\/?p=958","title":{"rendered":"Our Colliding Orbits: Chapter 5"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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caleb<\/h2>\n\n\n\n
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i keep thinking about that girl<\/p>\n\n\n\n

the one who defended me<\/p>\n\n\n\n

<\/div>\n\n\n\n

maybe i should give her a chance <\/p>\n\n\n\n

she did try to help me<\/p>\n\n\n\n

when no one else bothered to<\/p>\n\n\n\n

<\/div>\n\n\n\n

she spoke to me today<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201cwhat\u2019s your name?\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

i didn\u2019t want to respond <\/p>\n\n\n\n

to engage with another person<\/p>\n\n\n\n

who had a chance to hurt me<\/p>\n\n\n\n

<\/div>\n\n\n\n

another person<\/p>\n\n\n\n

who could rip me apart <\/p>\n\n\n\n

leave my heart bleeding <\/p>\n\n\n\n

my trust gone<\/p>\n\n\n\n

my confidence crumpled<\/p>\n\n\n\n

<\/div>\n\n\n\n

but i figured <\/p>\n\n\n\n

i\u2019d crossed the finish line <\/p>\n\n\n\n

into the land of <\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201cnothing to lose\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n

<\/div>\n\n\n\n

so i told her<\/p>\n\n\n\n

i didn\u2019t smile at her <\/p>\n\n\n\n

just an acknowledging nod <\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201ccaleb\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201ci\u2019m olivia\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

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she held out her hand<\/p>\n\n\n\n

<\/div>\n\n\n\n

not wanting to be rude<\/p>\n\n\n\n

i took it uncertainly <\/p>\n\n\n\n

it had been a long time<\/p>\n\n\n\n

since someone willingly<\/p>\n\n\n\n

 introduced themselves to me<\/p>\n\n\n\n

<\/div>\n\n\n\n

at least she tried <\/p>\n\n\n\n

to protect me<\/p>\n\n\n\n

even if she knew <\/p>\n\n\n\n

i wouldn\u2019t accept it<\/p>\n\n\n\n

<\/div>\n\n\n\n

that\u2019s more than<\/p>\n\n\n\n

anyone else <\/p>\n\n\n\n

has done recently<\/p>\n\n\n\n

<\/div>\n\n\n\n

some people are strange<\/p>\n\n\n\n

they fade into society <\/p>\n\n\n\n

dissolve into countless crowds <\/p>\n\n\n\n

where everyone’s the same <\/p>\n\n\n\n

not daring to break free<\/p>\n\n\n\n

of the norms surrounding them<\/p>\n\n\n\n

<\/div>\n\n\n\n

people like labels<\/p>\n\n\n\n

they like putting you in a box<\/p>\n\n\n\n

they want you to be<\/p>\n\n\n\n

who they want you to be<\/p>\n\n\n\n

people don\u2019t like messy<\/p>\n\n\n\n

or different<\/p>\n\n\n\n

<\/div>\n\n\n\n

they watch with eyes<\/p>\n\n\n\n

that can be many things<\/p>\n\n\n\n

nonchalant <\/p>\n\n\n\n

pitiful<\/p>\n\n\n\n

judgemental<\/p>\n\n\n\n

<\/div>\n\n\n\n

but they don\u2019t say anything<\/p>\n\n\n\n

or do anything<\/p>\n\n\n\n

for the sake of another <\/p>\n\n\n\n

who needs it <\/p>\n\n\n\n

more than their reputation<\/p>\n\n\n\n

<\/div>\n\n\n\n

they don\u2019t think <\/p>\n\n\n\n

about the fact <\/p>\n\n\n\n

that someone out there <\/p>\n\n\n\n

maybe a stranger <\/p>\n\n\n\n

or an acquaintance <\/p>\n\n\n\n

is clinging to that scrap of hope<\/p>\n\n\n\n

that someone still cares about them<\/p>\n\n\n\n

<\/div>\n\n\n\n

they don\u2019t think <\/p>\n\n\n\n

that just a couple of words<\/p>\n\n\n\n

could save someone\u2019s life<\/p>\n\n\n\n

<\/div>\n\n\n\n

they could provide consolation<\/p>\n\n\n\n

or even just a smile  <\/p>\n\n\n\n

but out of fear<\/p>\n\n\n\n

they refuse<\/p>\n\n\n\n

<\/div>\n\n\n\n

fear for what? <\/p>\n\n\n\n

for something that won\u2019t matter<\/p>\n\n\n\n

when they look back on it<\/p>\n\n\n\n

in twenty years<\/p>\n\n\n\n

<\/div>\n\n\n\n

fear of others\u2019 opinions changing<\/p>\n\n\n\n

fear of not fitting in<\/p>\n\n\n\n

<\/div>\n\n\n\n

don\u2019t help the freaks<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

say the worst ones<\/p>\n\n\n\n

or else we\u2019ll treat you the same<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

<\/div>\n\n\n\n

not everyone is like that <\/p>\n\n\n\n

i know that <\/p>\n\n\n\n

i\u2019ve met people who aren\u2019t<\/p>\n\n\n\n

but it\u2019s been a long time <\/p>\n\n\n\n

since someone bothered <\/p>\n\n\n\n

to prove that they weren\u2019t<\/p>\n\n\n\n

<\/div>\n\n\n\n

but this girl <\/p>\n\n\n\n

this girl perplexes me <\/p>\n\n\n\n

i felt something <\/p>\n\n\n\n

when she spoke<\/p>\n\n\n\n

<\/div>\n\n\n\n

it wasn\u2019t quite<\/p>\n\n\n\n

a spark of love <\/p>\n\n\n\n

or a crush<\/p>\n\n\n\n

<\/div>\n\n\n\n

i wouldn\u2019t describe it <\/p>\n\n\n\n

as butterflies<\/p>\n\n\n\n

<\/div>\n\n\n\n

it was more of a pull toward her<\/p>\n\n\n\n

a feeling <\/p>\n\n\n\n

that we were meant to meet<\/p>\n\n\n\n

<\/div>\n\n\n\n

i was never <\/p>\n\n\n\n

a strong believer <\/p>\n\n\n\n

in fate <\/p>\n\n\n\n

or soulmates <\/p>\n\n\n\n

all that astrology shit<\/p>\n\n\n\n

but it doesn\u2019t feel like that<\/p>\n\n\n\n

this feels different<\/p>\n\n\n\n

<\/div>\n\n\n\n

it feels like <\/p>\n\n\n\n

if i don\u2019t let her help me <\/p>\n\n\n\n

i won\u2019t get a chance again <\/p>\n\n\n\n

for a long time <\/p>\n\n\n\n

a chance for freedom <\/p>\n\n\n\n

for escape <\/p>\n\n\n\n

of this continuous judgment<\/p>\n\n\n\n

<\/div>\n\n\n\n

tomorrow<\/p>\n\n\n\n

i decide <\/p>\n\n\n\n

i\u2019m going to talk to this girl<\/p>\n\n\n\n

<\/div>\n\n\n\n

tomorrow<\/p>\n\n\n\n

i’m going to get to know her<\/p>\n\n\n\n

she can get to know me<\/p>\n\n\n\n

<\/div>\n\n\n\n

and maybe <\/p>\n\n\n\n

if she\u2019s lucky enough<\/p>\n\n\n\n

i\u2019ll let her in.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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