{"id":1682,"date":"2024-11-28T06:00:00","date_gmt":"2024-11-28T06:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/blueandread.asbarcelona.com\/?p=1682"},"modified":"2024-11-27T22:22:01","modified_gmt":"2024-11-27T22:22:01","slug":"winter","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blueandread.asbarcelona.com\/?p=1682","title":{"rendered":"Winter"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

I wrote this poem about people who struggle with seasonal depression. It is something I feel is much more common than often assumed, and it doesn\u2019t have to be a serious medical condition in order for it to be important. In my life I have been close with people who have experienced it in some form, and so from their descriptions I wrote this poem.\u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Clouds grow dark and the nightmare begins. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

A long forgotten box pulled from the attic, <\/p>\n\n\n\n

smiling nutcrackers go up on a dusted old shelf. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Leaves float to the ground, candle light dances. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

So beautiful <\/p>\n\n\n\n

So peaceful <\/p>\n\n\n\n

So perfect.  <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Too<\/em> <\/p>\n\n\n\n

perfect. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

The air is heavy <\/p>\n\n\n\n

with anticipation.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Children sing, fire <\/p>\n\n\n\n

crackles in a grate.  <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Dread is brewing <\/p>\n\n\n\n

in the pit of my stomach.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Creeping, choking, consuming <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Dread. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I can\u2019t ignore it. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

My thoughts are cloaked in the darkness <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I can feel it tugging at my feet <\/p>\n\n\n\n

like a sheet covering me, suffocating me, <\/p>\n\n\n\n

dragging me down. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

My mind is a barren tree stripped of its leaves. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

You promised this year would be better, I say. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

But my mirror is no longer a reflection I trust,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

It\u2019s a black hole that pulls me in, <\/p>\n\n\n\n

a void, just dust.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

The nutcrackers\u2019 smiles aren\u2019t smiles they\u2019re threatening sneers. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Hollow grins that whisper my fears. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

This is all a lie. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

My room once filled with music and light, <\/p>\n\n\n\n

is now my only solace in which I escape the nightmares within. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

This isn\u2019t happening, I say.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Also a lie. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Even I am oblivious to my own deceit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I give in to the sheets pulling me down <\/p>\n\n\n\n

and I await the fateful spring that will relight my flame. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I watch from above as my figure laughs and dances like the rest. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

They can\u2019t know. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Why would they care? <\/p>\n\n\n\n

This is all a lie anyway.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

What\u2019s one more? <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Please just let the winter end. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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