How could I miss something I\u2019ve never had? <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I miss holding your hand.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I miss your green eyes.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I miss the richness of your musky cologne.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
How could I have imagined it all?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The day you came to my birthday party and met all my friends. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
They asked you about your hobbies and school.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And I heard the stars twinkling.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Have you ever thought of me?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I haven\u2019t been able to sleep.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I see your silhouette on my ceiling.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And I ache and crumple at the thought that I\u2019m alone.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I\u2019ve been told<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 waiting is bad.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bite the bullet, jump into the deep end. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
But I can\u2019t, or at least I haven\u2019t, and I won\u2019t let myself <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Because you will laugh at me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I won\u2019t be able to explain myself. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I will run towards the tide,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So close I\u2019ll almost<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0touch the ocean.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
But it will chase me inland, over and over again.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The cactus in my backyard is blooming. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
The vibrant red flower<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00a0 spreads out like a fan.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n
But the spines make me shiver.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I pick dandelions instead.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I keep telling people about you <\/p>\n\n\n\n
When you don\u2019t even know me. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I tell them you\u2019re<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0\u00a0not important<\/p>\n\n\n\n
To not have to face the uncomfortable truth.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Imagination makes the heart<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0\u00a0grow fonder<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And fills me with enchanting dreams.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
But I can\u2019t continue imagining us<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Because I jolt awake, and there are spines in my bed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
In the morning, my heart shrivels. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
It\u2019s tired of working so hard.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
My heart is a paradox.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Lonely and full.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
But perhaps one day we\u2019ll really <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Listen to the stars,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Swim in the ocean,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And you\u2019ll offer me a<\/p>\n\n\n\n
bouquet of dandelions.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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